There's something about you ... that got me addicted ...

Hey yo people.

Well I am fine now, I am calm, no hating myself and stuff. Juz peace :D

Had an awesome lunch with my chics, instead of cooping inside my house and you know, dwell on stuffs.

Kim got me to listen to some songs, & yeah I kind of went silent and started ...

Anyway tuition was awesome too. We made hell load of noise, but who cares.


& I'm really sorry to made some of you worry, the skipping of school and everything.

<3 y'all :)

( If I camwhore, I am definitely in a good mood. Hee )

Song for you

( Please turn the volume up )

I saw an old friend of our's today
She asked about you,I didn't quite know what to say
heard You've been making the rounds 'round here
while I've been trying to make tears disappear.

Chorus:
Now I'm almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town
You'll see I'm almost over you...

You're such a sly one with a cold cold heart
maybe leavin came easy, but it tore me apart
time heals all wounds they say and I should know
coz it seems like forever,
but im letting you go

(chorus)

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams
although you left me with nothing to show
but all misery

( chorus )

when you come back around, after painting the town,
You'll see I'm almost over you

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A song that never fails to make me tear.

That's all I have to say.

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How am I supposed to get started on my work, when I'm feeling like crap now?

I'm feeling exactly the same way I felt last night.

I have about 10 homework, no, more than that, that I'm supposed to finish.

It hurts.

IT FUCKING HURTS, I CAN'T EXPRESS HOW PAINFUL IT FEELS LIKE. CRYING DOESN'T HELP. DOESN'T.

It stings ... I didn't know that a person could have such a great impact on me.

I HATE MYSELF AND MY SCREWED LIFE, IMPERFECTIONS.

I FEEL UGLY. FUCKING UGLY.

WHY CAN'T I BE PRETTY? WHY CAN'T I BE BORN WITH A PRETTY FACE? INSTEAD OF THIS PIECE OF CRAP THAT IS STUCK ONTO MY HEAD.

SMALL EYES, BIG NOSE BIG FACE BIG LIPS SMALL EARS AND A FUCKING BODY WITH NO PROPORTION.

I HATE IT, HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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My joys died, and perished in their infancy.

Credits to memetic.

I didn't go to school today.

Went to bed at 1.30 a.m last night after having a long long talk with two nice person ( Not gonna tell you who in case you start asking them what happened ). They were nice, very nice.

One of them even allowed me to call her, when her mum was angry with her using the phone. Damn nice right.


Hmmm well ... I tried watching many many many videos of my fav. band now & yeah it did kind of cheered me up a lil.


The night was long. I spent the whole night thinking about where I went wrong and yeah ..... she ....


Well, she had won, once again. I thought this time I would be the one that win, but I'm wrong, dead wrong.


I didn't knew which part of the night did I fell asleep. I woke up, with a heavy head, small & puffy eyes and the world was spinning at an extremely fast rate somehow.

I looked at my mum, I think she knew what happened to me but I just asked her if I could give school a miss today and she agreed.

I can't go to school like this ... I can't pay attention in class & speaking of that, I should be taking my chinese test today but since I missed school, I am not sure if the teacher is gonna let me take it.


( Trust me, when I said that my eyes are small, they are as small like ' -.- ' Not kidding. )


Cuddling in my blanket while watching the skies turn bright was kind of good. I love silence, it calms me down.

Can't count the number of times my vision blurred due to the wetness of my eyes the entire night & morning.

Texted some people, whom some of them forced me to go to school. Sweet of them <3

Juz let me blog this one last post ... and I promise happy posts.

But actually I didn't feel as crushed compared to April when something else happened.


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Guess this is the end.

I need time.

Might not be blogging for the time being.


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Quote

Credits to enlaced

From my drama trainer :

" Everything has to come to an end someday. Yes, I felt an extreme sense of loss but we have our own lives to live. "

Didn't knew it would apply to me.

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Random # 5

I need to stop being sucha drama queen.

Relax & Chill.

PS : I realised my posts are getting very boring and meaningless.

But its kinda fun. Hee.

I promise you guys that I will try my very best to stop being a drama queen.


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You.Could.Break.My.Heart

Credits to enlaced, livejournal community.


Firstly, I hope you guys like my new blogskin. Was up doing it 'till 2 last night.

& Please do leave me comments under ' kisses/comments ' button below every post. No its not gonna open into a new page. Its a pop out.

Plz do so cause I can't insert a tagboard.

Much thanks. xx.

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Horrible.

Guess what? Not only did I screw up my Chemistry, A Math, I even screwed up Biology.


My favourite subject. & I scored 5/10 for the test. Mrs C. asked me what happened, reason for my marks dropping so low. Didn't know what to answer. But I promised her I'll buck up.


& I realised that I've actually misunderstood someone today. For the entire day. I got so paranoid and started emo-twitting. -.- I thought he was like texting her & stuff & yadayada.


I'm gonna stop being sucha drama queen. Its annoying to the maxxx.


Oh & me and Tiff both thinks that _______ smells friggin' nice! Like oh wow! Hee. Its a person by the way. Didn't know he smells so nice :p


After school was like, wow, dramatic but funny at the same time.

Tiffany, I wanna tell you that I love you even though we argue like, every 20 minutes. Its kind of fun though. Ahaha.

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I suddenly remembered that I have drama tomorrow & on Wednesday. 3 hours of games until 6.30 p.m. Oh great.


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I am determined to make my screwed life on track again. Time to buck up Juliana.


Focus!

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Can't help it.

I don't even know why I'm reacting like this. Isn't everything over?

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I don't know how I should feel anymore.

& I should probably stop posting short posts.

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Please stop playing this game of love.

Credits to enlaced.

Entangled.

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This is it; This is all there is

First of all,

GRATZ 3 PEACE FOR GETTING THRID IN INTERCLASS FRISBEE!

If we don't rock, who does?

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Today was such a tiring day.

Slept at 3 yesterday night, which caused me to oversleep for tuition and I had no choice but to take a cab down.

Hence I conclude that laziness = loss of cash.

Tuition was alright. We spent two hours doing four questions. Are we amazing or what.


Can't wait for the picnic next week. People who don't bring food would be introduced to my scary ' friend '. ( Inside thing, ahah )


I couldn't concentrate in tuition at all. I was racking my brains out for even the most simple calculations.


When I got home I was so tired & bothered that I just plopped on the bed after feasting on KFC. I know I know, sleeping after eating will cause you to grow fat.

Laziness = Growing fat.

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I was thinkin' bout how short life is these few days. Yeah I'm only 15, I still have like 50 ++ years to go, estimating that I am gonna live 'till that old.


Let's see some of the things I wanna achieve in life :

Have a son and a daughter, followed by many many grandchildren!

Be a pediatrician.

Open a cafe when I retire.

Travel around the world ( I guess almost everybody has this dream )

& Then I found out from my tutor that being a doctor requires many years of studying, & overseas studying.

So by the time I finish university, I would be like ...22++?

Imagine if I still have to study for 6 years, I can only be a basic doctor at 28.

Sigh.

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I'm alive, but I'm barely breathing.

How's this week for you?


This week has been mad hectic for me, never-ending tests which I always end up screwing even though I've studied 'till 2 a.m the night before.


Stupid flow of non-stop emotions which I'm not able to control. Everything about .. seems to be so ...


I'll side track a lil : Joshua Koh, if you read this on your iphone in canada, I wanna say that I miss you loads. You seem to be one of the few people who can take my drama & tell me off when I'm wrong/ acting like some spoiltbrat/ drama mama. Its funny how people always think that we're together, but only the both of us knows how special this friendship is to one another.


Okay back to what I was blogging about.


My body seems to be conveying a message like " STOP! I'm too tired! Sleep earlier will you? Hello, we need time to heal, its not like you don't know all these, you take Biology for goodness sake! "


Sigh, I'm still comparing S & myself. Can't help feeling inferior. Insanely inferior.



Maybe someday, someone will love me just because I'm me, Juliana Tan.


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Do you want to venture into my world of Madness?

Lemme blog about how my day was, yesterday.

( Trying very hard to recall )

I can't really remember anything except ... drama.

We had a new trainer for drama, well that's kind of good I guess, the bad thing is that ...

Drama training now ends at 6.30 p.m every Tuesday & Wednesday. 

* Gasps *

I got home yesterday & had cold fries, cold burger and warm coke for dinner, because our trainer released us late, so I missed the bus. Arghhhhhhhhh.


When I got home I was so tired that I could just doze off immediately. But did my life allow me to do so?

NO.

I had to have a friggin' E Math test the next day & I had to let my tutor know my score.

I slept at like, lemme see, 1 a.m?

& all we did in that 3 hours of drama was to play games. Get my point?


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Then there's today, well the day hasn't ended, so I guess I'll blog about how my day was until now.

Chemistry was insanely tough somehow for today. I wasn't listening because my mind was thinking about ...


Guess what.



No, its not a who.

The Solar Eclipse.

Although Singapore can't experience like a full effect, it was still awesomezxz much to see the sky turning ultra dark.

PE was fun somehow, played Rounders, which is a game similar to Baseball. Thanks Mr O. who helped the girls to hit the ball cuz we were lazy.

Dissected a goat/lamb/sheep's heart during Biology.

MrsChow/JunPeng/Eugene.K/Tiffany/Thessa/Many other people did the work.

Surprisingly, I wasn't disgusted by the heart! I was actually amazed at the arteries and the veins & stuff.

Passion for Biology.

Had Listening Comprehension O levels. It was kinda easy. Dozed off at first because my eyes were mad tired. Miss F. had to wake me up.

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So here I am, blogging little details of my life. I'm thinkin' of not blogging so much details next time, maybe just a short post to sum up everything.


What do you guys think?


Love y'all.



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Random # 4

I'm gonna be a little bitchy because I can't sleep. I know I'm weird.


Okay here it goes.



Hey copycat, copy all you want! The way I do things ( I shall not list out what, you yourself know what )! You can copy all you want :)


Because ...

You'll still be a wannabe of me :)

Okay I feel disgusted saying that because I don't think anyone wanna be a wannabe of me, except her I guess.

No matter how much you try to copy something from someone, you won't be as good as that someone you're trying to copy from. Get it? Sounds kinda complicated :/

Hee I know I'm thick skinned but I like it!


Okay I muz get some sleep now!


Will post a nice, non-bitchy post tomorrow! ( Or some other time )



Adios.


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Three souls, one voice

Today was mad awesome.

I slept at like 2 a.m yesterday. Almost couldn't wake up on time for E Math tuition.


E Math tuition was good. There's this Catholic high guy in our class & his name is J something. Can't remember. & The E Math teacher Michelle was damn nice to bully.


So I spent most of the class time irritating the teacher. Ahaha, that's soooo me man.


Anyway, me, Thessa & Tiffany went to AMK Hub & had pratas for lunch. Look at how Thessa eats her prata :


I wanted to take pictures, so Tiff suggested that we go her house. Of course we didn't mind!

Her house is friggin' nice!!


We spent hours at her house, blasting music, playing ' 7-up ', some cake game, & loads of confession time! Promised to never reveal anything :)


Okay I shall keep this post short, 'cause there are many pictures coming.


Thessa, Tiffany, thank you for an awesome day :D Love you guys!



Thessa's trying to say that Barbie Dolls rock!









































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